erasing yourself from somebody's
life is not as simple as
walking out the door.

people said,
letting go can be the hardest thing to do. loving someone can be so easy like a child eating up his lovely ice-cream.
breaking up is the saddest part of a relationship. first thing first when you get into a relationship you dont plan for a break up. you plan to stay together as long as life take you.

i want sam.t to know that if that guy cant give you, your field that you want let him go. daddy god' will sent an awesome guy that can give you your field and take whatever nonsense you have to come, and share it with him. he will be the most understanding patience caring sweet godly guy you ever meet, someone you can talk to. and fall in love for the same guy again and again. BUT... rmb, allow JESUS to be in your relationship let him be the middle man. tell JESUS about your relationship and what you wanna see grow in the relationship. be patience and trust daddy god. he will give you his best man. believe... yeah! ^_^

Learning not to regret' in life is not as easy as walking out of the door.

~

went out shopping with sam&wanwen actually suppose to be wanyin tagging along but she got to go find sec school for her younger bro, wonder what school he go?
bought my contacts lens, camp tee hmmm, but dont really like it somehow but it's nice. but but... i want those from topshop-tee plain they are soo awesome. i love them. bought shorts,sunglasses,and a pair of cheap shoes at my house downstairs which cost $18.60/-

On the way home i felt a uncomfortable feeling, heavy hearted, goshh! i dont like that feeling. feels like im gonna lose someone.

>>> webcaming :D

>>> facial products.

>>> Softy.

>>> smiling'

>>> wat sup'

>>> sneakers! my LOVE`

>>> The Evolution Of The Ipod.

>>> Weird. not !much

oh! well, wence cannot make it, actually not cannot make it is cause rebecca wanna watch the movie on friday’ hmmm, yupp! so i dunno man. fine, only sam wanyin and me is going down to ION. Zzz… what’s with that rebecca’s mom. hmph! quite weird how old is she? omgz! national player yet cannot really go out. okays… i should nnot judge others. im soo mean. hahahhaha!

finally plurk, my goshhh! karma said i plurk to much. LOL, only like 1.10 increase ><” thing’s i gonna need to buy before camp,

1. Camp bag
2. Boomz! river island’s sneakers { opps! out of the box! :P
3. maybe got to buy shorts. yeah! stupid cannot wear FBT. saded much D:

nothing i can think of aready!

{.The STARS that lights the way home

*InWeirdApplesNeverNotAppearSeriousEnough.EevnYawningOurU-shapeRacesFlickACatEveryday?

>>> photo’s of that day.

Yupps! happy belated’ birthday to ME. and happy birthday to SEAHWANYIN. Awesome, those photo’s are on 211109 in the car. bonding much! LOVED BY THEM, IM SOO BLAZTED OF WITH THEM.

im tired, of trying like what i said on de other post, but even if you hate me or whatever dont have to delet me form facebook what? Shingz! you really do have some problem, please grow up. dont be soo SHINGZ! 0.o” problem kid. hate me why dont you just face me and tell me. IN TO MY FACE. <- talking about someone else not mozzie,

>>> thanks.

Boomz! thanks, for everything DNA. thanks for the love. and yeah not to forget thanks wence the MR. gay, for de piggy. anyway, i believe it’s time to forget about mozzie. what’s the use, love-ing someone that does not even really talk to you anymore? do he even care? i dont think so. he dont get anything for you on your birthday. huhz? soo what, it’s totally love-ing something that’s dead. am i right to say that. i hate one sided love. anyway, i try getting the best out of you once, maybe i got a little, im happy and not asking for more. you cannot give me the sky i want? i should just stop getting your attention. it’s all just eating me up on the inside slowly every false-hope, every lie. i try, it’s i got to call it a stop once and for all :D 2x secure then even. AMEN!

OMGZ! wence wence, this EJ will be his first even camp. woohoo! lol, why am i soo happy for him? hahaha^^ crazy. 

>>> I just realise and it’s too late.

if i just realise that we lasted for 5 months and i dont even know, i should not have broken up with you. now my heart’s breaking even more… saded! reading our past conversation. i cried! arghhh ><” if only it’s not cause of her, not cause i listen to him nor her? this would not have happen. saded! I MISS YOU, I WANT YOU BACk!

 

arghhh! FML.

>>> I saw I wonder, NOW WHAT?

MOFO, i meet up with kelvan aready! i dont really know what to say about him man. his chara damn puky. his looks not bad quite shuai, awesome EYES! i tell you, i want his eyes, BIG AND BRIGTH. >< awesome AWESOME^^ meet up at woodland, macing then slack OMGZ!!! he there kpkb, flick up lah. wanna go acrade then go luhs! i dont care siol ditch me then whatever luhs. stupid a-hole! ditch aready nevermind thought he will hang out with us jasmine kit yee n’ me in the end, he solo or dunno lah =.= 

whatever lah. i know you one ah beng…fine fine! i dont really bother. we very lame~ omgz.! Zzz… i dont like that. i’m not gonna even meet him again. what a bad impression!

* my love life? oh! shark! >< saded!

>>> If I…

If i see you again today it’s miracle.

If i did not say hi, after i see you. Its cause i’m scare.

But IF you see me, please give me a smile.

lets like this miracle happen, once again.

*  

>>> Hate falling sick.

==. of all things i fall sick now, hope can make it for tomorrow’s movie. kit yee wanna know wence huh. he  100% faint. LOL, walao… joke go out also cannot settle time? where to meet? no leadership sigh!

>< * when i fall sick in the past sure got people sms me? or like every other days. but now, soo dead. what am i really sacking for? love? attention form guys? what have i become, omgz! I CAN LIVE WITHOUR GUYS. OkAY. 0.O FLICk up. guess, i made mistakes i can’t erase.

>>> What’s going on with me? /you.

yes!! i did not blog for 2 days i think, but who cares i blog AS A JURONAL TO DADDY GOD and no one really knows my add. for my blogger. bleah :P thats soo funny? i blog and i dont tell people about my blog. anyway moving along. im having some problem with myself this past few days. well, it did not really affect me until now. like what’s supp with people talk about me and my height thingy? 0.o” i cried over it more then twice i believe. i really really HATED my height. today tonight this moment im giving DADDY GOD MY PROBLEM, MY HEIGHT PROBLEM and my skin tone problem kena weird about the skin tone, i wanna look like the rest. i dont wanna be special in that way. i wanna be like everyone, every chinese. i hate it. anyways, WHAT’S IMPORTANT TO ME IS EVEN MORE IMPORTANT TO GOD. IM LOOkING AT THE CROSS FRM THIS DAY ONWARDS. . .

>>> DG hang out.

yesterday, was a really wet wet day. hahaha! rain rain rain non-stop soo we went bowling first for around 2 hours. then cycle at east coast. hahaha~ awesome day.
long time seens DG HANG OUT. woohoo!

>>> im not, lovesick =="

Just came back frm tuition oh! my eyes gonna close soon. =.=" did not really talk to ___ , today. his too busy working. blah! will miss him but tmr also cannot talk sigh! im going out with DG. will see maybe friday can chat again. ahahaha^.^ and im soo not lovesick. :P

>>> Happy National Sandwich Day!

Happy National Sandwich Day!

Slogans

"Eat Fresh", first used in 2000 is the Subway chain's current worldwide slogan. Past slogans and regional variations include:

• "When You're Hungry, Make Tracks for Subway" (1979-1985)
• "My Way" (1985–1990)
• "The Place Where Fresh is the Taste" (1990–1995)
• "What a Sandwich" (1994–1995)
• "Right Before Your Eyes" (1995-96)
• "The Way A Sandwich Should Be" (1996–2000)
• "Eat Fresh." (2000-present)
• "Choose Well." (2004–present)
• "Think Fresh. Eat Fresh." (2008–present in Canada)
• "Fresh is best" (2006)
• "I feel good" (2009-present in Australia/New Zealand)
• "You can have it my way, or Subway" (2005-present in Edinburgh SAS)
• "Subway, Where Winners Eat" (2009-present, During the 2009 Little League World Series and Subway's Scrabble compeition^{[citation needed]})
• "We've Got A Sub For That" (2009 in the UK and Ireland)

*hahaha! im just bored soo, here you go subway yummy! try one today :D

>>> Seeing a pretty girl & hunky guy in pain.

wow! i guess i do understand how it feels after a break and a deeply hurt one.
idk? i randomly read someone's blog(: sigh* i really felt the pain for the guy, after his break up. he love her soo much. but believe both are right, she too young and his almost at the age to continue living with her for the rest of his life, i believe.
they both still love each other, let time heal the wound.

-btw, that girl im talking about is really pretty! and i will say that ima indeed jealous of her. she get whatever she wants. maybe i do not know her thick and thin but i know she's one bless girl. awesome look! GOD BLAST YOU RICHLY, IM DEAR.

>>> You know, I know

>>> no more.

Beat that' im one and alone. NO one can use me, or hurt me anymore! i belong in the arms of DADDY GOD, MY ABBA MY FATHER.

daddy god made the whole world for me to play and im wise in jesus name. as he is so am i in still world. get it, right. im in the world but not of the world :D

>>> perhaps.

jealousy? envy? perhaps!

perhaps i over reacted so much cause' i envy you! youre my good friend and of all things youre in the picture. it was never my fault, never was i in the picture.
...
till you put me up in the frame. am i gonna lose a friend. cause i envy her. and you cheated on me. but, youre still lie-ing towards her and me. i really wonder can i still face you even as a friend. nope! dont think' so. i never talk to you after that lie. never again! would i wanna see your face.
youre a disappointment. deep, deep... disappointment!

seriously how can i trust guys again?!
perhaps, its all just fate.

>>> sharks!

WTB... you cannot go out. sigh! "blow air.
stoning then! im hungry i need MY MAC WINGS.

>>> Another brand new day.

great, now im bored D: wondering when is beloved gonna reply or call me back... arhhh!
just ate sugar crackers & prawn crackers in the morning hahaha^^ that soo bad, but nevermind :P
planning to go shopping with beloved, get beloved phone back and yeah. something else.
omg! i really got nothing to do. maybe i do? but im just too lazy.

Will continue writing tonites, ^^

>>> Wondering.

as you can see, im blogging again cause i got nothing to do and i wanna share my thought, hardship with whoever is reading my blog. recently not doing very well, my love life is in a mess. im study not really there yet, my friendship in school kena weird. my church peeps still the BEST. i believe ^^

Start with my love life. long story currently something kena happen between me S.W.Y and some jerk. starts like that we took train home with that jerk and some of the peeps with out S.W.Y we started talking about who like who? *laughs yeah. we ask the jerk who he likes he dont wanna say then me and Dy said S.W.Y then jerk like "yeah yeah! i told S.W.Y about my love towards her. whatever crap then everyone started talking and teasing him about that. one night i smsed jerk asking him who he seriously like?, then of all things he said me. im stun but i did not really believe that, thank goodness. but i continue talking to jerk like a normal friend one day i sms him saying that im bored and he replied this. " you bored my fault arh? go find your wanyin talk ah ?" what the flick... nevermind jerk also got sudden PMS. gay! moving on he started saying that he dont know me! fine, i cannot take it anymore. i ask J for help cut the long story short, jerk was just using me so that people will not tease him and S.W.Y anymore. what the flick.
using me is like omg! cheated my feelings... im really angry when i found out. jerk why are you doing this for all your STUPID FACE. omgz! i dont understand you. thank god i have friends that will not leave me hanging out there in the dark. if J did not tell me im gonna be left in the dark all alone. you know how EVIL, MEAN youre. you hurt me. hurt ME MUCH. i saw your second FACE. im in a mess, totally mess!

Gonna go shopping with beloved. heading down to Far East Plaza, Ion and Wisma. & might be meeting _____ if we have fate in orchard road.